Raggin' Piano Boogie

HIS SPIRIT LIVES ON! ... BONER, THE PIANO DOG ... November 27, 1994 ... February 20, 2010

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September 30, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

If anyone thinks, why doesn't he just get another dog well, those people do not think as I do concerning pets. My commitment is much more than most and it takes more from myself than most to live with a dog or any live being. For example I just would never leave a dog alone for even a half day. The exercise a dog needs, to have a dog experience nature, to teach a dog how to roam freely and come when needed even in the most tempting situations to run or disobey, how to interact with all kinds of people on top of the piano, there is much more. My present living environment does not allow for a dog to grow into my life style. Also, having a dog in public and leaving him in the truck when I need to do run into the store or anything... in todays world this just freaks people out.

They have no clue to the relationship and how it works, our unique sense of being together and how much I care about my canine companions. Anyway, I am really missing both Mo and Bo. Nothing in life really mattered at the core while they were in my life except for them. When life has been great... then great, I got to share that with my dogs! When it was awful I always got to turn to my dogs for a hug, some play, to go for a walk, to take my mind aways from anything disturbing. They were all I really wanted in life. To have them by my side. Now, I am left with just me. I do not do very well with being alone nor would I want to live with anyone else unless that environment had major privacy and totally separate space. The older one gets the more eccentric one gets.

September 29, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

No one will ever confuse my writing with that of AI. My mistakes are unique and individual. As I seek to always do better I know that with the perception of perfection, there will always be better and worse than myself. My content has always been from a stream of consciousness with one quick review and then well, it is what it is. My music is also simply stream of consciousness. I can judge crappy so much better in others than in myself when it comes to what I say. With my art and music my judgement varies from experience to experience but it is usually a positive. In my work with people on the truck it is almost always a question of how it went after I am done. That is because my first impulse is always a negative, harsh really bad negatives. In reality it is almost always a positive. I know that fact intellectually but I cannot connect emotionally with it so, I just need to turn off any judgment for myself and let it go.

September 28, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

This blog just becomes more and more personal. What do I have to lose from being this way? Nothing. To fake anything in order to create interest to help keep it all going, to put on a smily face as inspiration for others... that has never been my way. Although, for most of the years I focused on the good only and worked to not hurt anyone's feelings. As I said from the start in this blog it must be all... the good and bad. Also, I have left out a lot of the bad for the sake of inspiration for others and also have chosen mostly a positive perspective because I want to be positive. We all live in reality and now my positive spins need more reality, because I want that. Never have I shied away from pointing out injustice and I have expressed anger I guess now its all more intense. Life is more intense than it was. I've always communicated with as much passion as possible in order to stimulate.

September 27, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

It is so strange, everyday I wake up with the intention to have my coffee and then first thing... spend some time in meditation. Routines,I still struggle with. The day turns into procrastination while doing other stuff while thinking that I need to do the friggin' meditation. Sometimes it will take me into the late afternoon before I simply get out of my chair and swivel onto the bed to do it. Meditation has always served me well. My thoughts go off all the time with it onto what to eat or who I hate but I just put the time in and bring myself back around to what I am doing and why when possible and when I remember what I am doing. I live with the "bring the body and the mind will follow" mentality. Huge miracles have come to me directly as a result of meditation. It is not a silent process for me. Singing the gratitude mantra to hear my voice is a must else I sink into a mind of ongoing distraction.

September 26, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Today a week ago I was on a retreat. It was with a bunch of sober guys I have begun to hang out with and they treated so it cost me nothing. It was my first time in nature for a period of time without Mo. I had no buffer for my relating or none relating. Hanging out with people, not used to that. It was completely out of my box. I was given as much space as needed and even had my own cabin. That was a God thing for sure. A sense of privacy was really needed. I can't hang around with people for too long without needing a total break.

I left the experience with a numb feeling and in fact got a little depressed over it. I've never outgrown how I felt totally rejected by my siblings in activities when I was a young boy. Of course that was partly of my doing as I did not want to participate in sports or their ways. And also like with Mo, being by my Mom's side was always better as I felt special that I could be "special" with her. Of course the rest of the siblings hated that. I spent many years in group therapies to learn better. That helped but still... all success concerning relating in groups is self made, none of it comes naturally.

September 25, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I really miss Mo. Along with his personality, patience, tolerance and dry humor, I miss his consistency in relationship. But mostly, I miss how me made me feel special. When we were out in public, I never felt alone as I always do now. I was special with other people because of him. Now I must fend for my own and try to figure out how to fit in and have a voice. I've always just wanted to feel part of, one of. With Mo I did not have to work at it and in fact did not care if I was part of or one of because... as a team we were special. Ahh... to feel "special."

Mo helped informed people, opened the door through simply being with me to see and know a little of what kind of person I am. Now I am just an older, single man who is very ordinary. That is simply a fact. I don't feel pathetic about it. I do feel like I need to adjust big time. Even on the truck, I am more of a novelty. With Mo and how he choose to jump into and out of the truck and onto the piano and behaved so well, the Traveling Piano had more significance. Through the time period after Boner died I had a newly painted attractive truck, I was still young and my persona was much stronger which created significance.

September 24, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

A constant awareness is needed to "do" stuff in order to stay alive which at my core I really would like to do, stay alive. Although, I thought today, "do you want to eat or walk" as walking is becoming more difficult from gaining weight. I choose to eat. My life is full of difficulty in choosing to take care of myself in ways to be healthy first and foremost. I lost hope about being healthy in my formative years because all I experienced was criticism about my weight. When I began this present journey and was going to the gym after a time period I was never like, now I look forward to going to the gym. The best it ever got was to go do it without thought. There was an overall enjoyment that my life was getting better and I knew going to the gym was a huge part of all that but, the satisfaction of "knowing" was as good as it got. There was a good feel in knowing that I was getting healthier but it created no incentive or a driving force to continue doing it. Even with remembering to remember how bad it was did not help. And today I know that habits fade.

September 23, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I must find a way to feel inspired into action. Everything I have been using for inspiration is no longer working. There were a hundred sources I could list that I have used throughout the last twenty years. None of them are interesting me. Mo, he was my foundation, my core rock to feel inspired and move forward into the world. Since he has been gone, life has been slipping away in every way. That was happening before he died but he was a distraction from that. He was my life's enjoyment. The littlest things, like my now needing to use a work around to post this blog. My computer is so old it will not work with the internet as it used to. Probably no one reads this blog anymore, anyway.

People are now addicted to social platforms. There was a time when it was getting millions of hits a day on this website. And then there is the playing with music on the piano. The piano is shitty, its just not fun and to search for a piano to play on, the work needed to be able to purchase a new one, the physical energy for anything... I know I have no choice but to continue because of who I am as a person, because I am a survivor and because I know that the God of my understanding wants me to continue on as well as other people. Deep down I know I still have the inspiration to go on I just really hate always having to go find it, take a grasp of it and put it to use on my own.

September 22, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

There has been nothing new to blog about. I think the heat is about to break for good and so I will force myself out with the Traveling Piano when that happens. Really, it has been almost a force to go out everytime throughout all these years and then once I "do" the rewards come. I need to remember to remember that. Just like with my ability to walk being so difficult and my breathing. There were times throughout my life when I was young even, when I had problems with that. When I first began this journey I remember that I started getting into shape physically by barely being able to walk around a football field... once. Now because I am old, does that not mean I cannot improve? Does it also mean that improving will not be worth anything because I will soon die? Fact is, life is just a cycle. Everything old comes around again in new ways. It is time to transition once again and with less expectations.

September 21, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

My character deems certain behaviors specifically when it comes to dancing with the devil. It does for everyone. I am just more conscious about that then most. For example, I stopped shopping with Amazon 20 years ago when I saw how deceptive, manipulative and addictive they were to suck customers into its web of service. If I can shop online with a direct source I always choose that first. Ebay is a devil I dance with from time to time because I am used to the platform and there is little other choice. I know how the platform works to find the best prices. There is still some choice on that platform. Goggle I have always avoided for web searches. I've been on a rant about all this in my mind. I should be more busy with what is most important so I do not have time to rant.

September 20, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I want to leave Facebook and have been saying that for about five years. While I am on Instagram sometimes, I've never been sucked into it probably because I use my computer verses my phone for social platforms. I quit Twitter with 70,000 followers the day Musk purchased it. God, I was not going to feed that... beast. Tik Tok I never really got started on because I knew it was nothing more than a Chinese government surveillance system from the start. It was proven and stated as such. Google, I have avoided it on almost all levels from the start. I never use its search engines or any of its apps except for maps. Other social platforms I always think about but the time and energy needed to invest in them is just more basically fairly shallow social relationship, naa. I've always been interested in Reddit but not enough to learn it. Other platforms, the same.

September 19, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

When it comes to dancing with the devil, AI is the devil incarnate in every way. I've been speaking and writing about it for a good ten to fifteen years. And now, especially in knowing that it is being used first and foremost for the worlds militaries well, billions of people are doomed. To know that it is taking over our mind, body and souls without people knowing, my personal helping to support AI in ways I could never dream of is just terrible. I always remember the core about it. With the development veering from the original intent in the late 80's, the founders left the development, over 400 top developers penned a letter saying do not release and many thousands more in development said the same. Never in the history of human kind has anything released for commercially financial gain first and foremost been of benefit in service for humanity.

September 18, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I know I am writing a lot about the internet and the sources for todays communication worldwide. It is a process I am working through and writing about it helps. I think about living without the internet everyday. Millions of people worldwide live without the internet. When I break it down... humanity, relationship, joy, love, peace, purpose, functioning in a society does not equal the internet. That all can happen without the internet. We have all been sucked into a delusionary belief that the internet is life. Just like AI... it is not life, it is artificial. At least that is the way it will be for my lifetime. Everyday I try to stay clean with what success is, the perception can be very delusional especially when looked at through commercial eyes of any sort. Sure, fame in the media is fun as is what money can afford but... it is not and has never been what motivates my life.

Attention, validation, reassurance, the feeling of being part of something bigger motivates me more and I have received a measure of that even on a worldwide platform but how much more do I want or need in order to continue with the Traveling Piano? That, I do not know. It is a decision to make for sure. The money, yea... I do want some more of that but to what extent? How much work do I want to do in order to get it... this is a dilemma. It has always been that way for me. People have often fed the line... we all need money to get through life. What they do not understand is that money comes in many different ways and for me rarely from where I am looking for it.

September 17, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I've stopped posting to Youtube a long time ago. Even though the platform has the largest reach for my "audience" of every age, social and cultural background and I know I could have been a titan on the platform by now if I had "worked it" through the years. The idea of my Traveling Piano work belonging to Google and what Google represents has never felt right. And now with its alignment with trumps dictatorship, I know I have been correct with my thoughts. And then again, the ads. Never will I willingly allow others to make money off my work when I consciously choose not to make any of my own money from it as part of the "brand" so to speak. I remember back (long time ago) when companies began to brand people with their names for advertisement on their clothes. From the start and still until today... why would I pay to wear clothes that advertise a company and with no return? Through a company brand name is not the way I would ever choose to express my own self worth or to gain respect from others.

September 16, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

It is looking like my work will disappear from the internet. I mean, thats going to happen anyway once I die so, I must evaluate constantly the worth of it all until then. But, as I choose to use the internet less and less yea, I am going to disappear. That is, unless someone knows to do a deep search. Also, at this point I realize that other people will need to make money off my work if it is to survive. I would need to find others to keep it all going and develop it further. But... that would go against my individual creation. But also, it is in alignment with Raggin' Piano Boogie the entertainment/performance vehicle pre the Traveling Piano for twenty years. There have been many clones of my work in different versions of the worldwide. It makes me happy to know I have inspired people to find themselves through my work. Some have made loads of money from it. But there will never be truly another Danny Kean with how I interact and share my individual spirit with others. That is why clones have never bothered me. They can never be me. I've seen online a guy that actually tries to copy the script of what I do and say. The problem there is that he has cameras all around him, he is promoting what he does for money while doing it and is out to create a big "thing" with it all.

September 15, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I've never been out to "sell" what I do with the Traveling Piano. That is not in alignment with Danny Kean's personal and intimate interactions, not at all. Other people are not me so I do not care what they do. There was one piano guy early on who tried to clone my work with a piano on his truck and he even had his dog sitting on top of the piano. Even more he would follow me everywhere, even went down to Mexico like I did. He would go to a place where I left and call the media to act like me because he knew I was not a media hound. But... that is just it. I have never been a media hound, lol the Traveling Piano with concept, intent and purpose is totally different.

That is the only guy that bothered me somewhat, because he was not taking the idea and making it his own, he was trying to be me and it felt creepy. The one thing he never has done throughout the years is to spend time in a community suffering from tragedy. Compassion and empathy and being the "real deal"... he was not that and does not have any of that. So what he puts out into the world would have been rejected in any tragic situation. He knew that on some level or just had no interest. What I do, what I give to the world is pure. I can say that because it all comes from a sense of humility and gratitude. If I was not 100% pure, I would stumble and fall and fail. This I know from "all" my life experiences. It comes from the grace to be honest with myself. Thank God.

September 14, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

At this point I would like to transition with the Traveling Piano into a "show" of some sort. It would be fun to become a personality or something like that in a big way. I mean... I'm the first piano man ever, the only one ever to make money for 20 years ongoing and outdoors on the back of a pickup truck playing the piano. And the same time I am also the first and only to do that without making money out of choice. I have a lot to work with in being a personality. This does not mean I need to stop what I am doing now. Ideally I'd like to create a block buster movie (lol) or a scripted streaming television show. I am not too interested in a documentary or online youtube type streaming show. Finding people to work with is the greatest challenge. Next would be to let go of control. Work to be flexible, negotiate the process, etc... but I know I would be able to do that if I can trust those involved were 100% in alignment with my core basic concepts.

September 13, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Finding people or a company that will follow through with what they say and agree to do, every year becomes more difficult. I've had more than my share of people talking out their ass in my life. It never ceases to disappoint but well, I just need to keep going in-spite of other people not being responsible. I sent an email to the newly appointed Las Vegas Arts District president who it looks like has a lot of knowledge concerning business, the city and how things work. I wanted to just meet for a cup of coffee with a sense of friendship and maybe learn who and how to approach the idea of getting support. After all, I am the first and only person to support the Las Vegas Arts District Main Street when it began with the Traveling Piano and have done an enormous amount of community outreach from the start.

I've also created worth to the area for both visitors and locals and am very respected. Last year I placed seven acoustic pianos onto the streets by myself and they lasted an entire year. One would think the local business and government would appreciate any of that and maybe want to know me better and how I work? He replied with a thanks for contacting "us" and instructed me to pick a time for early next week. I picked Monday with a time saying I am completely flexible to whenever is most convenient for him. Two days later I emailed again just for clarification and to find out exactly where. He replied he was sick and would get in touch when he was feeling better. Really? Damm it, people... do better. He knew he would be sick five days later and out of work? This is the kind of crap I just cannot deal with. Be straight forward, people. It is not surprising, not at all but damm, it is always disappointing.

September 12, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

When I think of all those who voted for trump and worse, those that voted for the republican politicians supporting him, all those that did not vote out of self-centered disgust and those who would choose anarchist ways for the fun of it... specifically the so called Christians who voted republican because their religious authoritarians told them to... I think of words Jesus said while dying, "father, forgive them; for they know not what they do." Although, sadly on some level everyone knew exactly what they were doing. But, I must think in terms of forgiveness because, opposite thought would be to want them all dead. In reality, that is not what I want so I must hang onto forgiveness through gratitude not for them... but through the grace of knowing the truth in spirit. Humanity has gone over the tipping point for this worlds present civilization period. Part of me would like to think that is just an old man's perspective but no, it is what it is.

September 11, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

When Bo died I was in such a better place with my life. It was a space of total uncertainty with a sense of continuation. Now, with Mo gone it feels like I am done, with my life. I want to live in my memories. They are so great. Bo was a true start of my consciously enjoying life and he taught me so much. The main lesson was that of respect. Though Bo I learned that I needed to bend and treat him as a dog. I was applying human thought, feelings and actions to a dog. Our relationship bonded totally when I stopped being an asshole with him. With Bo also I learned that my love was attached to a feeling of loss and abandonment. Once I realized that, our living in the present moment together became conscious and joyful until the very last moment. Although, those last moments were excruciatingly painful and intense at the same time. Thank God for Bo in my life.

September 10, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I have never felt morbid or fearful about death. There has been sadness but never despair over it. There has been some pain and suffering over death but the reality of life and gratitude, appreciation through death has always been much, much stronger whether I have realized it while experiencing it or not. So, as I write about my death or the death of this journey I want it to be clear. There is no negativity attached, nothing to feel bad about or fear as I know death is a transition. As far as I know my transition will be no better or worse than the present moment. I know my spirit will live on as it does with everyone and everything I have ever known.

When both Boner and Mo passed (my pups and the strongest relationships in life) I wrote about it here on this blog openly. The God of my understanding in life was with me in body throughout. There was not much need for faith on the matter. I was shown clearly throughout the process and I am shown daily. Of course there have been disappointments through my periods of grief. There has been shock even and brief moments of feeling totally alone from how certain people did not respond but, I new in my heart and soul everything would be ok. The reason I am writing this is because I am going to address my life and this journey when it comes to death and AI.

September 09, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I do not feel like I will be around much longer in this life. And when I leave it, I going for sure away and for good. No hanging around for me, lol. I'll be flying away God willing. In my life I've been told that I am the salt of the earth, an old soul who has been around the block a few times. Well, if that is true, after this time, this old soul ain't coming back no more. I have been conflicted as to how I want to go out. Do I enjoy my way out through piddling with arts and crafts and music here and there and organizing every morsel of my work at leisure, and eating whatever I please with the very small amount of money that I have to live on?

Or, do I just keep doing what I have been doing with the journey which is beginning to bore me to death. Or, do I push forward with dreams I have had to make happen even though I know they will probably never happen unless I make huge changes in my life. Changes I have tried doing for my entire life and have failed at. Do I continue to keep getting up after falling down? Like get up with an alarm clock and working through feeling tired even though I think I will die from not enough sleep. The exercise and food issues, the reaching out to people to help move the journey to a higher level while knowing that 99% of the time will be a failure. It only takes that one time, right? Right.

September 08, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Anyway, concerning AI... I think about leaving the internet and everything about it. AI is a devil I would rather not dance with. I know I will need to dance with it more and more as time goes on. My thinking is, why would I want to feed the devil? I have no Amazon account, I do not use Goggle, I have practically no apps on my phone, do not purchase water, my privacy for what little I am able to have now in life, that is still a priority. If I leave the internet my existence and all my work will most likely disappear once I die especially if I do not feed AI. I've not a problem with that. But yet another side of me says I would like to leave a legacy. It is kinda significant for the world. But now I am realizing it really does not matter if I interact with AI.

Such a dilemma. I would interact in ways that would compromise my morals or values and... there is little chance I will get sucked into it because... it is going to destroy us all before that could happen. AI is worse then any concern over trump and his maggots. It is worse than the idea of nuclear war, it is worse than America being destroyed by outside forces, or climate change. AI is about to destroy us all. I've followed and observed almost every aspect of AI from its beginnings and now, we all are beyond hope concerning it. So, my future and/or legacy means nothing because there will be no future. Now... is all we have and what do I want to do with "now" and how do I want to proceed.

September 07, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I took it easy today, an email came through from a family member a couple days ago and that always sets off negative emotional memories and feelings for me. I could write a book on how dysfunctional it all is. Yesterday at the end of the day I found a spot in an ally where no one would find me and created music for myself. That felt good but also I know the sound was wafting in every direction for at least a block. It is fun to think people are wondering what it is, if it is live or not, where it is coming from and I know they enjoy it. For neighbors they think, ahh... the piano man is out. It is comforting for them and something familiar that is good all around. I'm sure there is a negative in all that and luckily all I have ever experienced is an overwhelming positive response. It gives me a feeling of being part of the neighborhood and something that I can contribute for everyone. Music is a great communicator and my piano improvisations, the ambience i create is neutral and harmless. It is actually inspiring for people. I say that with total gratitude and humility. My playing improvisationally own music is something beyond my wildest of dreams and did not start till age fifty.

September 06, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Today felt pretty good as I could handle the temperature. It was about 90º and in the shade that was fine. I took about 100 ice pops to the streets for random people and then drove into the strip to meet up with my friend Dave's girlfriend. They both live back east and he wanted for her to meet me and give me a hug from him. Margie, she plays a little piano herself and was in town for a conference. The interaction was great except for it being too short. She had a seminar she needed to get to. Being out of practice with my interactions, I need to focus strong and cannot take other people trying to control what I want to do or take me off script, lol. So... my keeping everything on track came across very direct... and strong in as fun a way as possible. I can be very directive. It has to be that way sometimes in order to just basically function with what I am doing. In the old days my energy was so strong my interactions captivated people. They had no choice but to follow my lead. It is not that way anymore.

September 05, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Almost always I am thinking about how I want to life out the rest of my life. I am trying to be realistic concerning what interests me, how I can serve the world, what I can do physically while living in the moment and the present state of the world politically. I know that if I work to become lighter in weight, if I got up early every morning to work in finding support, I could still accomplish some major career goals. But... I am in my seventies now and those two things weight and sleep, I've been blah, blah-ing about for my entire life since I was in my twenties. The weight... up and down, up and down, up and how the hell did I get through life waking up without a schedule and pretty much on my own time? That, except for when I had performances or a commitment concerning other people.

My entire life has been self motivated. I've never had to do or have been forced to do anything, thank God. It has been a tradeoff. I've lived life my way at the expense of conventional security and career success. My way has been best for me. Everyone has issues in life and consequences for their choices. The challenge is to stay honest concerning when I think this or that never happened and that I wanted for it to happen. Fact has always been that everything that has ever happened is because I truly wanted for it to happen. If something did not happen I really never wanted for it to happen or the tradeoff was not worth it concerning living my life, my way. No one gets to say my way is better or not, no one but me. I've made it to seventy years and am still enjoying what "is" in most ways.

September 04, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Today was the First Friday event where I live. It was originally a neighborhood festival now turned into a city marketing event mostly attended by kids. I took the Traveling Piano out for the first time in a long while. Once the sun went down and the temperature went into the low 90's I could do it. There is a large space to park across the street where a utility structure is on the sidewalk. It is perfect because it is away from all the event action and a perfect excuse to play for my neighbors. At one point there were six neighbors with me at the truck. Us all being together felt totally good. Where I was, there is a huge parking lot the city uses to gouge people for parking from the usual $5 to the event cost of $30. And... the cities parking supervisor happened to be around. So of course I was hassled.

I was not parked in a space, there were no spaces. He knew who I was, everyone does here and so it was an opportunity for him to feel special in being the jerk off he is. I was only there for an hour and was not obstructing anything, there was no safety issue, I live across the street and I was with my vehicle. So, with my thin skin that killed everything for me and I shut down. But, when all was said and done an hour for the first time out was enough. I would have continued until I did too much. Thank God the equipment had not fried over the last two months in the 110º - 120º heat every day. The speaker does not sound full and the piano keys do not play evenly but I was able to work with it.

September 03, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

The temperature is going back up to 110º for a few days. I really need to get onto a real piano thats decent to play and practice on. I'm losing my joy in creating music because I do not have a decent instrument to use. And my chops, my technical abilities not only as a result of age but lack of practice and just playing in general, there is no way to keep it all going. It has come forward for me how people "feel" my music. It moves them emotionally and how much of a gift that is to be able to do. When I was younger I did not appreciate or accept that fact about myself, not at all. Now... in knowing it, this is a gift I need to share with the world as much as possible but, how? Creating music from the piano on the truck is absolutely hard work. And, I certainly cannot flow with any music. I use a keyboard and that is not a real piano. And as well the heat has fried any fluidity with the touch, action or sound. I mean people still enjoy it but I don't. Its looking like I would rather quit then leave it all with dissatisfaction. Although, that just leaves me jonsin' with desire to create music as I know and love it best and then there is the sharing of it with others.

September 02, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

Took a ride to the Redrock Canyon overlook yesterday. It was under 100º for the 1st time in a while. This was my 1st time in nature without Mo. It is crazy how I can feel so "found" and "lost" in spirit... at the same time. The wind blowing nature into my face with what is now more than a familiar natural view, I am reminded why I am here on earth. It was a short time and walk as my physical capabilities are more limited now but... I think I will come back to life more with the heat not so bad. The Traveling Piano truck will bring the Beat to the Street tomorrow, if I can get it started. The desert is fried, the dead cactus stems below had the most amazing soft fur like coating on them.

September 01, 2026

Las Vegas, Nevada

I am feeling extremely good right now and need to say it out loud because that needs to be reinforced. It is 90º and that feels like a fresh spring day. The air smells and feels fresh. The urge to take the Traveling Piano out for work is incredibly strong so that is just a "tell" that as soon as it gets cooler I will be out and about again and motivated to find funding to continue with getting the truck workable for travel. The summer has been very difficult. Mo's passing in April, while I never went into a deep state of grief I have in fact been numb. There has been no happiness or feeling good. My pups not being in my life well, I miss the feeling of them everyday. Of course my leg and walking issue happened immediately after and then the heat has been just terrible. Functioning on any level has been very difficult. I have decided I want to continue living while also getting my bricks in order to the best of my ability for when I go. There are two men's groups I found. This is huge as I've not had luck in finding people to be with in Las Vegas since I settled here. I've been going out more and even driving in the dark some. That ability, in the dark, is getting worse with age. I so much want to go out and create music right now, I can't stand it, lol.