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HIS SPIRIT LIVES ON! ... BONER, THE PIANO DOG ... November 27, 1994 ... February 20, 2010

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November 30, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

The struggle mentally and emotionally concerning the first ever... Traveling Piano Fundraiser, Photo Gallery Residency (lol) ...is mind boggling for me to say the least. I finally got keys to the place to really begin to focus and get to work. Focus? I am able to focus? What do I want to gain from this? I know, but it is in all in a fog. How do I find the desire and passion from within to follow through on the level needed, give myself the clarity needed and follow through? So much of my mind says that I do not want to do this, I am done with it all, I cannot follow through or even deal with any major success. I'm too old, out of shape, it will fail. But.. here I am in reality with what I have wanted to do since settling into Las Vegas. Actively pursue permanent backing for my work, redo the truck and/or create a new one, endow it all to keep the legacy, put out my photo art into the world for people to have in their homes and garner contribution through that, have a gallery of my own, show slideshows, showcase the Traveling Piano, make something bigger of it, merchandise, etc... center this life's work from all about making money, to working for no money now, a balance in-between for my life is needed.

November 29, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

99% of people do not follow through with what they say they will do in life. That has been my personal experience. If they are getting paid and need the money, they show up. If they feel guilt or have personal agenda, they show up. If they are controlled and manipulated into feeling what they need to feel to show up... they show up. I am no good at making those things happen for anyone. And then there are those... if they feel any pressure from me... that pushes them away. So I can never, ever pressure anyone. That has been a 100% fail throughout my life... that of trying to apply pressure to a situation in order to make it happen. Then, there are those who offer (mind you, no asking on my part) to help and... no show. In the moment they totally mean it. Ten minutes later, forgotten or loss of their caring feeling. That always hurts the most. It is like they roll me in with hope and anticipation and then just drop me like a lead balloon.

November 28, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

Today was a blow out Thanksgiving Day. Nothing got done and I spent the day alone. I was supposed to be working on the the Traveling Piano Gallery setup, the place was locked, no one around, no one showed up to help. The place was to have Thanksgiving dinner for the community and bar employees in the late afternoon. No one around, did not happen. As I walked home alone for the third time after walking up the street to check I saw there were more homeless people wandering the streets than usual for Thanksgiving. I thought about how the day could have been spent with them. I need a fucking key for the gallery space so I can get in and do it all for myself... as usual or so it feels.

November 27, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

I am doing pretty good with the political shit about to hit the fan as far as falling down the rabbit hole of doom through the news facts happening every day. There is no denial for me on a conscious level of what is to come right around the corner. There will be no recovery back to a level of rational and sanity concerning it all, not at least in my life time. Fear, pain and suffering is at the door step. How to cope with that is what life will soon be all about in real time. It is what it is. Constantly, I try to think of those in the Ukraine, Palestine, Syria, Africa, etc... who lives of somewhat peace and normalcy and respect for human life... gone. I think of those who suffer from natural disaster in losing everything they built in their life time, those getting older and experiencing the lose of mental, physical and emotional energy... lol, that is beginning to happen for me... my goal is to trod through it all as I have done all my life and find love, peace and joy in the process.

November 26, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

November 25, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

After days of cooking turkey, cutting up cucumbers, peppers, carrots, onions, cooking potatoes and seasoning everything with mayo, salt pepper and barbecue seasoning... getting the dishes and forks ready... Mo and I took out 72 gallons of this amazing turkey salad! (a little exaggerated) We took it with the Traveling Piano to the streets for our peeps.Happy Thanksgiving! ...a few days early.

November 24, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

I set myself up! While feeling "no can do" with the Traveling Piano for this Thanksgiving concerning those living on the streets... I went food banking... gimme, gimme, gimme... more, more, more. And then it was like, what am I going to do with all this food? Of course, I can never waste a morsel of food. So now I have no choice but to chop, chop, chop, mix, season, cook, fill food containers, load the truck... there are three huge turkeys in the fridge. Anyone remember the size of my no oven kitchen with the size of its prep, sink and cooking space? Lol. I know how people feel who are alone on Thanksgiving with no where to go, etc... well, me too. I've no where to go except to hang out with my people on the streets where I always find respect, appreciation, friendship, fun and an inclusive feeling of love. I am so grateful I have something to offer for the world. I heard an interview where a guy asked, "Do you ever wonder if you are doing what you are supposed to be doing in life?" I have known for many years now that I am absolutely doing what I should be doing in life thanks to this journey I have been on.

November 23, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

After yesterday's constant "doing" I got up and went to play outside of another food bank that I've been to before and also wanted to collect more food for myself. I've enough, why am I getting so much food? My energy was surprisingly ok maybe because I knew t would be only for an hour. The cool temperature helped for sure. The food banks director did not seem to care if I was there or not but some of the volunteers we're besides themselves. Once I got home, it was time to crash and I feel asleep for hours. Then the exhaustion set in. Mo has been falling at different times as his back leg joints are worn. When he falls down he freezes in spot until I go to help him which is so good. It is as though he instinctively knows not to move or that will make the situation worse.

November 22, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

The physical exhaustion I am experiencing is amazingly debilitating. Much of it comes from I think the anxiety and fear that I experience, that along with being so heavy. I had to get up early and meet with a guy from CNN so he could get some video of me playing for a story. Oh my God the music I played sucked. Oh well. Then I had to deal with some food bank issues for myself and my friends up the street who live in a small shed and after that... the gallery being built... part of me says, I just can't do it, I do not want to do it. But then I need to remember just to go with the flow and that people are helping and interested and I just need to keep showing up. I played outside it tonight and the people I met really gave me the energy needed to keep going. People make me happy. I mean people that I deal with in person with the Traveling Piano, most always.

November 21, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

I have been totally hesitant so say this is happening because of so many fails through the years... but this time... it is in fact happening. The structure behind the truck being built is an art gallery space for the 1st ever Traveling Piano residency here in Las Vegas!!! Pretty amazing, it will be a Las Vegas destination. I'll need contribution to pay for the materials and who is building it? Friends from the streets who I've been helping for years through the sharing of resources with music, validation and reassurance of worth. They are all happy to help out without hesitation or expectation of pay because... we are all family, a loving family who helps each other when needed.

November 20, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

Fall came suddenly. It went from hot straight to cold. For the last two weeks the temperatures have been ten degrees below normal for this time of year. No complaints from this piano man. I can play better and with more energy in cold than in heat. As I get out more with the Traveling Piano I've been enjoying meeting bands on tour traveling through town, educated people from different parts of the world and sharp looking locals. I need this for now as I steer myself away from working with those living on the streets. This Thanksgiving and Christmas will be about the Artist Residency. In past years I've gone out to raise money for gifts and food to share. Most all of my time will be spent on the residency for now. The focus is to find backing for the Traveling Piano. Of course I'll also need to make money with it if for nothing else but to pay for all the materials to build the space and pay for signs, the photos to sell, etc... and I'll probably do something small scale for the streets.

November 19, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

Mo's left back leg collapsed unusable today. I know that arthritis has totally disintegrated his bone joint but then again he has had this issue about once a year over the last ten years. Something happens he begins to collapse and then he gets going again. But, everything is for sure getting more difficult for him. Last night he got stuck on the stairs coming up to our room. He could not lift his back legs to step up and just froze on them. He has been through a life long heavy duty heart issue, ate rat poison, car battery acid, has had two poison scorpion bites, for the last six months he has an on and off cough/gag going on. But, he still smiles, loves to eat, jumps around, sometimes does short sprints on the sidewalk, loves people and especially me... he's still going!

November 18, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

Listening to fun, old time stride and ragtime by early jazz piano players has been helping to keep me going. I'm afraid to think about the Artist Residency, the picture posted is from outside today. It is supposed to happen, but so many possibilities have fallen through in the past, I'm afraid to talk about it until it is up and running. It has been cold here in Las Vegas. I'll take that over the killing heat a few months ago, any day! I must allow the world to take its course and not try to stop, change, nurture, educate anyone's mind anymore because it seems to me that most minds just become more warped daily. All I can do is share my love and music.

November 17, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

For the past years at this time I am using getting ready for Thanksgiving, gathering ongoing resources, supplies, contributions for those on the streets and then for Christmas the same thing. Now, I am going to spend this time just for me. My life style is about to change dramatically. Everything I have done has been on my own time. Now I will need to make a structured commitment to this Photo Gallery with time. It will no longer be a matter of working when I can. Commitment, consistency, follow through, my life will no longer be my own for a while. I tried this a few years ago and then covid hit. It would not have worked anyway because the place where I was... the people we're insane on drugs, dealing in contraband, theft, etc... now to make this a fun venture... because, I am soo... tired and weak. I was sick two weeks ago. Recovery anymore takes twice as long as when I was younger. I must do something different with this journey and my life, so this is it. I'll come around with energy, I always do. I've made the decision.

November 16, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

I finished writing about the political armageddon. This morning I gave it a once over and said out loud, "it is done," every I can possibly do, it is out of my control, processed in mind, not in denial about what is coming, it will be the end of everything. I stay aware objectively as always concerning other tragedies world wide throughout my life. Onward. Concerning the possible Traveling Piano Artist Residency I have been pursuing, I decided it was not going to happen. After a month with no feedback from the owner of the spot I called my friend Eric to tell him I am once again bringing all the supplies back to his garage. While talking with him a text came through. After hanging up I looked to see it was the owner texting, wanting to meet. Very detailed... he offered me a spot that was not going to work for me. I said no thank you, he went back to the original space in his mind, kissed a stone around his neck and said ok, lets go for it. I asked what the stone was about. He said his friend Rob died today from alcoholism age 36. His ok for the spot was about Rob. He knew I am in recovery. I said, we will do this Artist Residency together in honor of your friend. Once home I emailed the CNN writer who I also had not heard from to tell him I have a spot if he was still going to do an article on the Traveling Piano and asked if he could insert it. He said the timing was perfect because the article is to come out next week. Arron, a guy I know who creates structures and is living out in back of the space said he would help with a structural build. My friends living on the streets are going to help me. Alignment...

I have become physically sick from what will be the loss of American Democracy. As is with all dictatorships, the truth of spirit will begin to disappear and be re-told in order to serve the dictatorship. Trump and his fascist republican party have already been trying to rewrite the truth for years. My own writing here serves as a spec of information for the sake of truth in spirit. I know it will be archived somewhere even if AI comes looking to take it away. If I came to a web page like this years ago I would have written it off as from a gaslit quack. I am not a gaslit quack... not at all. What have I been doing everyday? Working to process the dim future out of my life so I can live in the present moment. I know in a spirtual sense the present moment is all that exists while at the same time knowing we live in a reality. Writing can be an amazingly therapeutic tool. The length of what is to come below is a testament to how strong I feel, my passion and care for all our world.

To govern our country, the majority of voting Americans choose trumps emotional platform of hate, fear, anger and resentment verses supporting the Harris platform of faith, hope, joy and efficiency. That, from a capable women with top level experience who has devoted her entire working life to public service and also happens to be part black in skin color. Last time around with the clown that trump is, the majority of people voted against the most qualified person in history ever to run for the office of presidency. Alas, she was rejected also, as a woman. Most all who voted against Clinton will never admit that. The ramblings of a destructive, demented clown won out over the cackling laugh of a woman who truly cares about the American people and the world, who also happens to be black. How shallow can it get. It is all shallow enough to kill us all. America voted through identity politics often suggested as dangerous and now about to show itself as deadly. As an old white man trump playing as a bully to how people of all types see themselves, especially the self disrespecting part.

Trump won over simply minds by tapping into anxiety with hubris and ego to help them delude themselves from reality. He knows what people really want... not what they say they want. He created distractions for everyone to forget or not want to remember what his last presidency was like and that he is now a convicted felon with 36 counts on his head. And then there was that insurrection... He taught them that he is most powerful and good and they will not need to sacrifice a thing if they elect him. The majority of American voters accepted all that shit. And now those people will eat it until they die. Don't worry, daddy is going to take care of you, no need to think, question or care about anything. That was his snake oil so people could "feel" like they are winning even when everything around them says they are losing, to "feel" like someone is fighting for them even though he was fighting only for himself, to think and "feel" they are on the precipice of owning a great country at the height of its history when he is out to destroy "all" the national institutions to create a dictatorship.

The majority of voters do not care about the plans "he has ideas about", they just want to hear what they can relate to, a real good story of how their lives are going to be better as told by their daddy, their authoritarian. Trump duped people with simplicity... things are bad, I will make it good. Thats it, simple enough. His cattle and sheep followed the fairy tale with complete compliance. This fact hurts me greatly in every way imaginable. Trumps majority was facilitated from many different authoritarian enablers, those with money and influence working behind curtains who most people have no clue about. Leo Leonard is one piece of shit who comes to mind. Republicans one and all, really fucked up religious leaders, misogynist men who have been grooming their own male youth, selfish minority immigrants, most all of those profiting from the corporate world are taking us all down.

Right wing influencers and right fascist media have been the republican vehicle for all the conspiracy theories and lies. People are obsessively addicted to FOX news and will die from their addiction. The only bad part about that is they will take down good people along with themselves. And then there is of course our enemies around the globe in the Middle East, Russia, China, North Korea, etc.. and Israel would show themselves as an enemy if they did not need us, Turkey, Hungary... the list goes on and on. All enemies including our own here in the USA are now playing a card game for total world domination among the rich. As trump's sick supporters gloat over his success I say, you love those liberal tears, eh? In about a half year, you will be drowning in them. Throughout the entire Harris campaign there was absolutely none of the sick bullshit going on as what was created through republicans. The idea with Harris was that sensibility, the truth, decency and value for all that is good would rein.

An old pathologically lying realty television show clown who has gone bankrupt six times while using his daddies inherited money for business, he is a convicted criminal who has been impeached two times as past president and morally he has entertained all ages both children and adults alike through his talk of grabbing women by their pussies and bragging about Arnold Palmers penis size. At his last rally he used his mic to mimic having oral sex by going down to suck on it in front of the world because he was angry. He has been divorced several times and as a serial wife cheater, had sex with a porn star while his wife was home with their infant son. Yet, the diocesan roman catholic priests and evangelical ministers along with other fake Christian groups instructed their flocks to vote for him. And they did.

They cared more about what their corrupt religious authoritarians wanted rather than the truth of spirit through Jesus Christ. Although the bottom line is that trump reflects their own character. Fake Christians have been groomed to focus on abortion as an obsession, a non-born babies death is their tool for denial and rationalization of all that is immoral. They do not want to know the truth about 100 hours of now dead sex trafficker and pedophile Jeffrey Epstein's tapes saying how trump was his best friend for ten years, how trump had sex for the first time with Melenia on his private jet (so romantic) and how trump liked to have sex with the wives of his best friends. Jeffrey Epstein himself described trump as having no moral compass. What kind of low life do you have to be to have Epstein say that on a video tape. Trump is as low as those who voted for him.

None of trumps insanity moved the needle for trump supporters. Their personal constitution demands they be fed by the spins and lies of lying, fascist media sources. For every single obvious "tell" that trump was a bad seed, they would spin and justify, rationalize away from the truth.Those trump sucking, sick, selfish voters, I am so angry! The truth means nothing to these people, they do not want the truth. But give them pizzagate and they will be all over it with that created stupid conspiracy theory about democrats having sex with children in the back of a pizza shop with sex rings. The deep-state, Jewish space lasers, vaccinations killing people makes sense for them. Dear God, trump glaring directly into his voters eyes during his presidential debate, "their eating your pet dogs, (immigrants) their eating the cats and ducks" and how all immigrants lives are worth nothing as thieves, killers and rapists" even though his own wife is an immigrant and the country runs on hard working immigrants. "Our children are going to school and coming home with sex changes."

Conspiracy theory is the worst evil in the world today dehumanizing us all. They have become the reality of truth for trump suckers. Moronic republican voters have been ok with everything said as they rationalize for their religious authoritarians and for the sake of lying to themselves. At his last event, trump then said to the world, watch how I hurt the sound engineers in the back room, as he banged hard on his mic because he was angry with them. He has threatened violence against all who have spoken out against him. About Liz Cheney, "she should see how it feels to face guns "trained on her face." Americans leadership of hate, anger and resentment, so Christian!

Trump tries to cover up his realities, the fact that last time around on his watch, almost 3 million jobs were lost. The number of people lacking health insurance rose by 3 million. Home prices rose from 27.5% to 65.8%. The federal debt rose from $14.4 trillion to $21.6 trillion. Illegal immigration increased. Gun production increased over 12% and the murder rate rose to the highest level since 1997. How fast people forget when he separated immigrant children from their mothers and fathers. Out of 2,100 children alone, as of last year at least 1000 have yet to be reunited. The children were held in cages while his for-profit prison friends salivated with glee. His strongest vow is to do it again on his first day in office. This time with millions of Americans, immigrants who have been living here as productive citizens for their entire lives.

Under Trumps watch when COVID began he barked at human medical expertise while repeating over and over, do not worry it is just a flu and will pass once spring comes. He suggested that his task force maybe should look into whether disinfectants could be injected inside people to treat COVID-19. Almost a quarter million people died. There is so much more to say about how trump was destroying America back then. You fucking stupid ass trump voters. He is going to create tariffs and those who voted for him have no idea that our business is who will pay for those tariffs. The price of everything, if you can in fact get anything, will shoot through the roof. Of course he will create lies to not take blame and rationalize. Those who support him will need to lie along with him because they will all be too cowardly and spineless to take a look at what they did to themselves. His voters will just continue to gulp the snake oil like alcoholic, addicted sots.

The mind of humanity knows it is going sour as a result of so many who just do not care and have no sense of getting honest with themselves. They do not want to. Permanent destructive ramifications are about to destroy us all because of the dysfunction. That may sound crazy, but that is what I am feeling and observing in just the world outside my rooms door while working to stay objective that the reality is not coming from my mind alone. History shows quite a bit of information about this kind of insanity through the ages. While those like trump, putin, netenyahu, jong-un, jinping and many others world wide take advantage of societies weak minds and those attaching themselves for influence, capitalizing off them, along with most of the billionaires, those who think profit is the solution for everything well, the old phrase that I let go of many years ago is resurfacing as reality. Money is the root of all evil. Although, I think it is more like, money is the facilitator of all evil. Self-centered greed, power, domination and control reins at the top. I can feel myself inside the human mind, inside of myself. I knew this was coming. It is part of life's cycle. Really, what is happening has been happening long before I came to earth. Selfishness, it goes hand in hand with jealousy and a feeling of neediness, this is what drives most trump voters deep down, especially the religious.

I've never met a trump voter who lives in gratitude for what others have, especially when it is more than themselves. Concerning those in need or who have less, the feeling for them is, if I have to suffer than so do they. Why should I help others to have life easy while I suffer, I "need" too. If they are given to, they will only take advantage of it. Do not enable the needy to be lazy. There is no relationship to individual needs and their thought process is by design to be self serving in denial of that. Meanwhile, they are too stupid to see they are not only making life easier for their authoritarians, they are actually living for them. Needy people must have someone to blame and at the same time feel superior and entitled. That is a huge part of the authoritarian playbook. That is what it is to be a republican. For someone who has been taught thoughts like "be happy with what you have" in comparison with those who actually "have" ...authoritarians teach the middle class and poor that those who are rich and living the best of life have worked harder and that is why they have what they have. You do not deserve as much as them. What a sell for capitalism! What a sell for those who inherit their money or are just snake oil salesmen.

Those taught that we are all here to suffer for the afterlife... never, ever, ever do people like this know true gratitude and abundance while living in the present moment. People who are living repressed lives unable to express who they really are deep inside, those who feel they cannot be accepted in ways they want to be, if able to live in denial also live as bratty children angry and frustrated while not understanding why. They despise others living life in ways they cannot benefit from and actually want them dead through objectification. I cannot tell you how many people say they love a gay family member while voting for everything that will repress them to the point of death if necessary. My family siblings would be a perfect example for all of this. God forbid they get honest about that. They live not according to what is acceptable for them deep in the spirit, or from a place of love's embrace, only from what they are told is acceptable by their authoritarians.

During the voting period on that day, the feeling of evil in the world was strong and prevalent. I just allowed myself to go numb until I found out the results. My participation to elect Kamela Harris was strictly self-centered with the desire to have a one hundred percent clean ass in being able to tell myself that I did everything I could possibly do in mind, body and spirit to save everything I care about. I spoke out and acted in the spirit of truth. Throughout the entire experience, most of my gratification surprising came from the comfort people expressed through my courage. Whether it be wearing a hat in public to state what I am about or working with signs to vote for freedom on the Traveling Piano. There were rallies I attended, talking to both friends and strangers one on one, my straight forward confrontations in words with people online, reaching out to volunteer with organizations. I walked the walk through the failure and people responded constantly with their comfort for what I was doing. There were those I consciously made uncomfortable and shocked. While trump minded voters were in a total space of respect for me and the Traveling Piano's experience, when the election entered the conversation by either them or myself, I did not hold back at all. With respectful severity I would call out the spirit of truth with them. With those religious I got right to the point of saying, "in the name of Jesus Christ I call you out as a fake."

The priority for presidential leadership is that of character. Administrative responsibilities (platforms) come second. Trump has proven time and time again for the public that he lacks moral character as a human being. Even though, his character for the majority of voters is of secondary importance. His snake oil sell of negative emotion reigned. Trump has always been for Trump. He is not for the American people or any people for that fact. Other human beings are nothing but profit in his eyes or something to abuse, discard, act out on with ugliness in all ways. How many times does one need to see that in order to respond appropriately. He has shown it hundreds of times in public throughout his life. Alas, his voters think it will never happen to them personally. If they are not totally brain dead they will be in for a huge awakening as he dismantles democracy and all the institutions that create life in our society as we know it.

Trump will care enough to use people and when done just let them die or insidiously kill them if needed. Ahh... for the pro war rationalization that some must die for the good of all even if it is your father, brother, child, wife, mother, etc... The disregard and discarding of human value hell, that is the core of what we now call republicanism. Just look at our history of caring for veterans through the years! Look at how helping veterans was block by the republican senate during trumps last reign and as Biden tried to create support for them. Not only people, the world will soon end with this clown in office. The world ending because of a republican clown, one who sells "special" autographed trump bibles printed in China to his idolizers. It is just so ridiculous and sad, very, very sad.

What does all this have to do with the Traveling Piano? Personally, I was indoctrinated into that trump-like American voting society from birth. Republicans in my life time have aways used emotional fear, self righteous lies and anger when it comes to political gain of any type. When it comes from their authoritarians, do it or else. I was taught "so it is" for the best of us all. But really, that "best" was for "our kind" only, fuck others. Those "others" may get a crumb of/or whatever from time to time as deemed appropriate and to rationalize the idea of sharing but never enough that they become equal, empowered or inspired to step out on their own or God forbid, into our shoes. As a teenager, my life was nothing but fear from all that. It was as dark as can be. But for the grace of God I escaped. Throughout life, in order to continue living, I have had to learn to let go, move away from and avoid people who spew the negatives of obligation and loyalty right or wrong whether they realize it or not.

Often I find myself fighting off those actively proliferating trump-like voter mentalities with the very hate, fear and anger they feed on. Right now with this writing, that is part of my intent. I certainly know how to act and think that way. I am very good at it because as I said, I was born into it. The hate, fear and anger of others is in my face now more than ever before. In going forward I will need all my tools of compassion, empathy, courage, tolerance, conviction in the truth of spirit, love, faith and hope, the list goes on and on... to continue onward with the Traveling Piano all the while knowing what drives those lost souls, it exists in myself and they have helped to unleash my devil from within through their authoritarians. My friend Eric said, yes you must continue for the greater good even though you are giving of yourself to fascist supporters from the Traveling Piano. At first I balked and then realized the "greater good" has nothing to do with the majority of anything. I live for the greater good. There are those who say, "Danny you must let go and learn to accept the fact that trump is now your president." I reply, like you did with Biden? Like you would have done with Harris? Has anyone noticed that the issue of voter fraud and the deep state has completely all of a sudden... poof? No more of that needed, eh? Assholes one and all.

Trump is in fact the definition of a sociopathic narcissist. He is severely dangerous for the world. I feel there is more than a ninety five percent chance he and is oligarchs will create large scale chaos, death and suffering. The Traveling Piano's work is not compatible with America's voting majority. There is absolutely nothing in common I have with them. Any good values they possess are over shadowed with hypocrisy and just really, really bad character. I've often compared them to having a mafia mentality. In daily life they are loving, caring and compassionate family members who contribute to their community. They go to church, work solid jobs while at night they go out slitting people's throats when needed. They lie, cheat and steal. The portion of society, those having warped minds who have been sold on the emotional lies of a sociopathic narcissist and his clown posse, those voters are nothing to me but users in denial and will suck me dry from all the love I have to give no matter the loving aspects of their personalities. They are like mafia members. The present Traveling Piano journey is the consequence of detaching from their dysfunction and leaving it all behind. And now with their strong presence, there is no place for me to turn to. The entire world is diseased with the same sickness. America is not to blame. It is the state of humanity, the human mind becoming lost and detached from the spirit of truth worldwide. Enter the anti-christ?

When I interact with people a part of me inside is asking, are you scum? I must find the strength to get back into the not wanting to know mode. My selfishness does not want to share and feed others with my love who will use it for themselves at the expense of those who need it most. Some would say the mentally warped voters need my love most. In my extensive life experience just, no. Enablers think that way. I spend a large amount of time working specifically with minorities and those suffering from oppressive governmental treatment or no care at all from anyone. Staying focused in a professional work mode is a challenge because personally as an emotional human being, my work, soul my hate, anger and resentment are all one and the same. Maybe I can use my own selfishness with a mentality that simply "uses" those people I do not like and do not want in my life... to keep myself going for those I do care about. Use them to practice my empathy and compassion for others who deserve, respect and appreciate what I have to offer. In reality I understand that both the worst and best need empathy and compassion.

With this recent election, having been seriously re-infected with the very hate, fear and anger mentality I left behind in my life, I realize it is the result of fighting against everything that trump voters represent. A way must be found to get back on track from within. This, for the sake of my own life and the Traveling Piano's mission. One of the benefits of having thousands of one on one personal, intimate and significant interactions with strangers over the years is that with the Traveling Piano's short five minute encounters usually, I never find out if a person is negatively selfish proned or not. Now, I want to know so I can smack them across the head. But of course that will not achieve my mission or help my life in anyway. The majority of voters have hurt me and those I care about with their selfish vote of shit, with their lack of care about anyone else in society with less means. Just as terrible are those that did not vote. They may be worse than trump voters through their conscious lack of response ability. I could not care less the reasoning. They selfishly reject that fact that they live in a society like it or not. Human beings are societal in nature and they have a part to play in who governs their society as a whole, for the good of all. And those claiming to be libertarian to live their lives without government interference... never met one of them who has refused a government check!

Prejudice has destroyed the experiment of American democracy. Many of those with less means voted against themselves. What fucking morons they are! They will very soon find that out for themselves. It all shows the insidious power and strength of a emotionally negative sell. Just look at how much the clown consistently berates his own, his country and everything but himself. And this is applauded as being straight forward by his ass suckers. What singles out American democracy as the best form of government ever devised is the fact that it has been built on ideals providing the opportunity and freedom to strive for success and attain a better life even through failure. It is a form of government created for the sake of "we" the people. Not only have the people failed, they destroyed the experiment. In doing that the world suffers also. Fuck you, trump voters. Of course when they realize they are dying, it will be too late. Everything about a trump supporter seethes a "true" lack of humility and gratitude, appreciation for what they have. If they we're filled with those qualities they would be sharing unconditionally while feeling free and overflowing with abundance.

I have observed in my lifetime that most people do not think for themselves. They are taught not to think from their own mind or truth at an early age. As people attempt to think for themselves they are taught not to trust their minds or they will get hurt, that our minds make mistakes which is not acceptable. They are taught that they are not capable of knowing anything on their own. This is why authorities exist. You must listen to them because they know better. They will tell you what to think, how, when and where... the "authorities" know best. They have studied their crafts and have the knowledge that you do not have and will never know on your own. What they leave out of the teachings is that authoritarians as human make mistakes. They leave out how you personally can take over their responsibilities or at least share them with your own thoughts and decisions. Do what you are told by them... be it with hate, love, doubt, trust, faith, whatever.

They are out for your best interests. Your obedience must be unconditional without questioning or else you will be cast out of society. No one will like you. You will not be able to survive. These instructions are taught to most young children through fear as a motivator to achieve the desired results. Loyalty and obligation is built into it all as a form of security. It is not possible for the authority to make a mistake and for the authorities themselves, rule number one... never, ever admit a mistake. I am a man who questions authority in order to work together especially through disagreements and opposite views so we can all progress. That, is a representation of American Democracy. Respect the experience and knowledge of others while feeling out whether they ever question themselves or not. All good authoritarians question and change through time with new knowledge learned.

Most people do not, cannot set themselves up to individualize as mature adults away from indoctrinating mindsets as they grow older. It is easier for them to give the responsibility of their own lives to others or they feel they dare not individualize out of fear. This is where the phrase "emotionally stunted" emerges for those who never mature mentally in emotional ways. That would be just about every person who votes for an authoritarian to control and manipulate their lives worldwide. They lack an ability to be honest with themselves about that. Deep, deep in their soul, their subconscious... we all know that is not the path to enlightenment. People's lack of acceptance in owning their own mind, body and soul, some nurture that as a weakness. It grows life long as a personal constitution because that is what they are told to do via authoritarians. Those few who cannot conform to this authoritarian mentality either hide away or seek to act out in life in the worst of ways to escape the hell they exist in, or simply kill themselves. It is in that space of mind, the not feeling part of, where addictions of all types thrive, where anti social behavior thrives, how people end up on the streets.

Myself, I am one who escaped both the authoritarian way and the addictive ways while always reminding myself it must be one day at a time. Although I still have addiction issues to live with, I claim my abilities in life through the grace of God, the God of my understanding and no one else's, and with gratitude. It took a full twenty five years of daily, and I do mean daily... hard work in many, many different ways with much success and failing along the way to achieve an understanding my "own" what I call the "spirit of truth." I have had to learn to live my life in my own individual ways unlike most other, people and do it in my own time to create a relationship of trust first and foremost with myself, from inside of myself again, through the grace of God. This did not happen fully until age fifty. I am now almost 70. The God of my understanding speaks through other people with patience, understanding, caring, acceptance, giving, sharing, appreciation, inclusion and tolerance.

These are the qualities I use to identify who to reject and who to embrace in life for personal relationship. The key words with all of this... relationship and trust. Learning who to trust in life and who to push away, let go of, reject, etc... has been my most important life practice to learn because... still to this day I must remember to remember as it has been indoctrinated into my mind and soul from my earliest of days... to choose authoritarianism rather than my personal own self. I would have committed suicide by age eighteen if I had fallen into total authoritarianism. Today, I allow myself to both love and hate others as long as I do no harm. Sometimes, speaking out with the spirit of truth through hate is not to harm, it is a responsibility. I must remind myself of responsibility, that for others and the world at large as an individual "part of" or else become self-centered in a hell of my own making. Trump voters often spout, "well that is your opinion." That is when I jump down their throat and say, No. The issue of life and death for others has nothing to do with an "opinion."

If I begin to think about what is happening in the worst of ways, my life becomes incredibly dark. But at the same time I must stay aware in order to begin preparing for the ongoing darkest of days to come. I am very aware that it is possible to live in joy and peace with darkness all around. In fact, I have been preparing for this my entire life through the simple thoughts of others. For example, a guy who was a nazi concentration camp surviver who managed to live in the experience of suffering and horror yet at the same time was able to cope with experiences of playfulness and happiness. Wish I could remember his name, he was an author, wrote a book about it. I must remember the fact that there is only so much I can do. I am constantly learning to pick my battles. If there is more I can do, I know my intuition will communicate that as long as I stay in a positive space. The serenity prayer comes to mind. God, grant me the serenity (peace of mind calm and clear) to "accept" the things I cannot change, the "courage" to change the things I can, and the "wisdom" to know the difference. That has worked well in my life for almost 50 years. Miracles have happened for me through that prayer. Along with meditation that I try and do daily acknowledging a power greater than myself, that which manifests all joy and removes all suffering I ask, please direct "our" thoughts.

Guess who is no longer a news junkie? Me. In fact, all this is helping me to move away from social media. Stupid and dysfunctional people on both sides of the fence and everywhere in between have been driving me crazy. I just cannot handle all the posting and parroting, the mud slinging at America through criticism and blame while at the same time claiming care about America. The country is hurting. It is dying and in that process Americans are going to beat the dying horse? They are just sharing feelings and dealing with it in their own ways? Ok, go for it. I'm outta here until everyone gets it out of their system. Is blaming and criticizing yourself as an American through posts and the words of others deemed "smart" how to keep up what morale is left to fight off the fascists? There is nothing to understand, no awareness is needed except to know the fact that pushing for self flagellation is very well known war tactic used by enemies to destroy morale. Our enemies are "using people to do their dirty work! Every time a person reposts online a criticism or makes a negative comment with the word America in a "generalized" way, think about that.

Same goes for generalizing about Christianity. Same goes for criticizing all men as a gender. On and on... I am done with it. I've finished my work of educating others or at least trying. Actually, everything I say and do is naturally ingrained with trying to help others, trying to educate, inspire and empower them to find themselves and step out as their own unique selves and to step away from the dysfunctions I have suffered throughout life. As with this journey when I finally stopped giving to takers in my personal life now, I am done giving to morons with no interest in personal growth on any level except to serve their fucked up authoritarians! Finally, the shouting of warnings into the void is over. Exhaustion has won. I've not much time here left on earth and I want to make the most of it in the best of ways. I'll be hanging out with the do-er's of good in "like" ways and not the complainers and the whiners. I've found something I say to fake Christians on the streets serving the poor. I set them up with, "Are you doing this for Jesus?" When they proclaim with excitement yes, I reply with, "Learn to do it through Jesus" otherwise you are just doing it self-centered for yourself because someone told you that it will get you into heaven or you are afraid of not doing what you are told like a child! I leave out that last part, lol. It would be great if I could just let everything float by my life and not be affected with "crazy", but I cannot. Time to shut down, revaluate, rejuvenate, make a new plan of action for my life and move on. It is what it is, and the end of ranting about all of this forever... I hope.

November 07, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

This is a terrible time for myself, my friends, those who love me, the Traveling Piano, for women, for children, all transgendered people, for creativity, for the hundreds of thousands of hard working immigrants who make this country go... for our health care, education, for our climate, science, journalism, justice, all those already living on the streets, free speech, for poor people, the middle class, for seniors who rely on social security, for our allies in Ukraine, for NATO, for the truth in spirit, for democracy and decency. It is terrible time for everyone who voted against trump and guess what... for those who did vote for him, it is also terrible, they just do not realize it yet. We must consciously know about all this while learning to live in the present moment at the same time. Burying the truth and facts does not help anything if... you are someone who truly loves the world. If you do not love the world... no worries, you will not be here for long.

November 06, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

How absolutely disgusting that so many people in my country choose to vote against everything the Traveling Piano stands for. With every particle of my being and my work, my offerings for the world, not one particle is in alignment with anything that is coming down the pike once the fascist clown they voted for takes office. If you are one of the stupid idiots who voted for him wow, are you going to be in shock as your life goes to hell and the speed of that happening. And of course those people with their warped minds, they will just continue to suck on his lies as to why life is ending for them while blaming it on everything but themselves. I am trying to figure a way back to working with the Traveling Piano and to continue the mission part of strangers becoming less afraid of each other when I know many of them I will despise if I find out they are a fascist trump supporter.

Do I want to enable the kind of person who stupidly voted for the end of democracy with my love? Fuck no. There is zero chance I will reach them on any purposeful level with my love. This, I am 100% sure of. They are takers, they are users, they are self-centered and selfish... everything I left in order to start this journey. I know better than to waste my time and passion for humanity on them. They are not worth it, they do not deserve it. I've been around the block enough times to know the difference between nurture and enable. I can feel the for profit prisons that trump siphoned governmental money to last time around. I can feel them chomping at the bits in anticipation of profit out the ass while they figure out how to round up hundreds of thousands of good hard working people who have been contributing to our society and who call the USA their home as immigrants and how they will separate them all from their families. Remember when he did that with children and their parents last time around? God, please direct all "our" thoughts.

November 05, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

Lol, it did not seem like I screamed a lot at the rally I attended last night but I woke up with a raspy throat. Must have exerted myself too much in the moment. So many people I know are not looking at the news right now, we have been through this once before. It is not possible to be a person who cares and not have high anxiety right now. All our lives are on the line. I cannot look at the news myself, there is no rush to know anything especially seeing as the chaos will not end.

How did the Traveling Piano Man and his Pup Mo spend this auspicious day? We settled in on Main Street in Downtown Las Vegas into the night standing strong for American Democracy and the Freedom of Choice in our community with like minded neighbors while Creating Musical Fun, Friendship and Respect with Empowerment and Inspiration! God help us all.

November 04, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

In the house tonight at the Las Vegas MGM Grand Garden Arena: Superstars Sofi Tukker, Christina Aquilera, Los Tigres Del Norte and many more all showing their support for American Democracy. Your voice is your vote. It is as simple as that. Vote! A friend and I with Mo, we all attended this final rally. The criteria for my respect given from this day forward will be determined first and foremost according to whether a person voted for American Democracy's ideals or the Clown, or Did Not Vote at all. This election has been the defining moment for a person's character. All of my personal values which have been manifested through the Traveling Piano are in 100% alignment with American Democracy.

November 03, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

All of my energy right now is in urging people to vote for American Democracy verses a Fascist Dictatorship. I talk with people on the streets, online, create a presence with my hat and the Traveling Piano full time. I email people... our lives are a stake and for those who do not take this serious, God forbid the clown gets back in. When they finally get serious, it will be too late. And then there are those not voting. Fuck them. I want to make sure my ass is clean and that I have done everything possible from my end. It is difficult for me to think that so many people's minds have been warped and/or they just have bad character. Feelings of anger and disgust fill me when I do think about it. Probably because I lived in that disgusting environment with my siblings for so many years growing up. Both my parents thank God would never have voted for trump. My siblings would have had to be told to vote likewise by them. Now that my parents are gone they are left to there own devices and their dark sides rein. Thank you dear lord above, thank the stars I matured emotionally. It took "allot" of work on myself throughout life to not be like them. It paid off.

November 02, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

With getting the truck painted, I am gambling big time. Finding good people to work on a vehicle in anyway these days is just a gamble. Finding someone who will not rip me off is so very difficult. Giving the truck to someone living on the streets to paint would be a lot less expensive. There is no assurance that a bonafide business would do any better than who I have in mind. They work hard, everything I have seen them do since I moved here has been quality work. The illusion is that the pros are better. That is just not always true. Then again with someone who lives on the street, they often live in their own flow of live concerning time, care and responsibility. One would think that someone who does the same thing for a living all the time would be a safer choice than someone who just free lances with their life in creative ways. But, in my experience that just is not true. The Traveling Piano in photos looks fine. In reality it is just plain awful. The paint and as well undercoating has all been pealing off.

November 01, 2024

Las Vegas, Nevada

I woke up feeling rested and ok. But, I know better than to push myself and that I need to take it real easy. After the amount of energy put out over the last week with the Traveling Piano's Trick or Treating for those living on the streets... there is always a 48 hour delay before the exhaustion kicks in. Now that Halloween is over a new focus is needed. I am making plans to paint the truck. That needs to be done in order to pitch it for a full restoration or a new one. Also, having it in a showcase state, I can possibly use it for work again to make money after all these years. There is that and the election which I have been very focused on. My anxiety over the election is through the roof. Same goes for the rest of the world going insane. Part of me wants to be like an irresponsible kid who could care less about society and the world at large.