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HIS SPIRIT LIVES ON! ... BONER, THE PIANO DOG ... November 27, 1994 ... February 20, 2010

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August 14, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

It is very hot. Thank God I have air conditioning and it is included in the rent. If I was still in my house it would be costing me $500 a month just for electricity right now! No matter how much water I drink, still it is not enough and functioning in mind and body is a challenge with or without air. Maybe it is because of the small room I am in. An email came through from a girl I met on the streets back a few years ago. Most people have thanked me for changing or affecting their live's in a positive way. This girl was sending me an email to thank me for saving her life. I told her she saved her own lIve through trust, by being open to suggestion through the grace of God. Many people save other people's lives every day in different ways. Mine has been saved at times by several different people. Doctors save millions of lives daily. The email brought into question my need to share the good deeds I do for others and what I am told about. There are several reasons but the most fundamental reason...



I have no basIc "good" self image other than what I have created for myself in life through others who I had to seek out and ask for help from... through the Grace of God. My parents did the best they good and God knows I love them today twenty and thirty years after they have passed as much as I can love but... what they knew suppressed any individual self-image that was mine alone for myself, which is what my life demands. So I have made a practIce with the writings shared. When I write them down they manifest in a more concrete way. I am missing memory links in my brain. This has been both a plus and minus for my life. So there are certain permanent deficiencies I have when remembering say written music, peoples names, what a good person I am... so writing down positives about the Traveling Piano and my life through the years has helped me to continue on a constant, worthwhile path in life. It is the "remembering to remember" that has helped me to save my own life and a large part of that job comes through my writing the good stuff down here on this blog. I must always remember to remember.

August 13, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

Across from the Salvation Army today in a hundred an five degree heat, playing the piano with notes sticking and many keys not playing these days is literally a "labor" of love... nothing is going to stop us from the musical fun, friendship and respect! There were a couple hundred people being served dinner and being given food to take with them... Mo and I are in this same spot every Tuesday. Why do this in such heat and with no pay? Because of the two guys who were getting some relief playing on the piano and singing, others that constantly come up and thank us for being there with them, because of a guy who came up to say the I sincerely changed his life for the better forever in our being there today... People exist everywhere in the world who need you to just be with them, nothing more... through difficult times with some validation, reassurance and dignity. I sure as hell need all that from others on a continual basis... more than most. And because of my own trust issues that will be with me until I die, the agenda of my work needs to be one hundred percent unconditional and without an agenda to get paid for it. Because of this, trust is very easy for people, it keeps me humble and sure of myself as no one can place their false motives or intent on me.

August 12, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

At the field tonight we met a bunch of boy scouts. A few of the guys had some experience with a piano. We got there about fifteen minutes later than usual and people were nervous that I wasn't going to show up. Several said... "you are late". Ha, the sun was not as strong but still I had to use the umbrella. One of the guys who brIngs food needed my help so I unpacked his truck for him while picking out food for the week for myself. Then I had to run around and get food for my neighbor. There was not so much piano playing. Most of the people who get on the truck to play do not stay on if I am not there with them. I must remember that everything is most about the personal relating. The music and everything else is simply the catalyst. This computer keyboard of mine is going crazy! When a key is pressed you never know what letter will appear. My body is getting old age marks. It is really weird how new spots just appear out of no where. Eww... I must do something about this website. Unfortunately most people are now using their phone for the internet and this website layout does not work for phones. I saw this blog page on someone's phone and the pictures were almost non-existent in size. In a month I may lose it all anyway because the renewal with the server will cost several hundred dollars and I won't even have the money for rent. Lets get back to the fun. Today was good, everythng is fine. Mo is with me and he is more than everything.

August 11, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

There was some journey relief today! I told myself, get out to Red Rock Canyon for some healing, peace of mind. We found a spot where we could walk into shade. Mo and I walked a little, found a flat rock to lay on, listened to the silence, walked a little, found a flat rock to lay on, took a few minute nap, etc... I took some pictures of rock textures. As we came down the hill we came onto a dry river bed where a couple was sitting waiting for two family members to come down from hiking. Mo went over to see them and a conversation began. They were from Newtown, Pennsylvania, twelve minutes from my old house in Bucks Country PA and had just arrived in Las Vegas for a week vacation last night. Well of course that led to the Traveling Piano. They had never seen me back east but remembered me from the newspaper. When I was working as a performer I used to get a lot of media coverage and when this journey began I got a lot of goodbye coverage. So our encounter was to say the least, fun! They had an identifiable energy about them from where they live that was very comfortable. Of course, it was a home feeling. Like when you go to Brooklyn, NY and just know the way people are down to earth and straight forward in their manner and talk.



Then, as I was about to leave a young guy came off the trail. It was dark. He was doing a meditation hike and was totally open to a Traveling Piano experience. After he left I decided to stay a little longer and create music for myself. A guy who was driving by stopped. Man he says, I thought I was going crazy. I been partying hard all week on the strip and was hiking in the mountains with friends and thought the partying had got to me because I was hearing your music and none of my friends could hear it and it was just so out of this world. That made me laugh because what I do is to create music for people to discover and this was my most favorite and perfect scenario. It brings back many memories from the past with people. So we had some fun with the piano and he left. When I try to think about what I want to do for the future... this is what I want to do, what I've been doing for twelve years. It serves purpose for me, society and the world. It creates goodness on every level... fulfills the need for fun, friendship and respect in the world, human connection with strangers. My work inspires, empowers, creates validation and reassurance of everything that love is and exemplifies that love exist and abounds throughout the world.

August 10, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

I got a lot of filing done today. It feels like I should go do something for fun but there is little inspiration to do anything. I've certainly had a lot of fun through the years with this journey, that is for sure. My float came out and I floated in the scummy apartment pool for a little bit. Mo and I took a walk through the inside of the Stratosphere Casino which is two blocks away from where I live. Lol, I've lived here two and a half years and it was the first time! It is just a bunch of gambling machines and stores. There is a Mc Donald's Hamburgers in there! Casinos are not much fun if your not gambling or spending money. A though came through my head that... I'm just waiting to die. Thats a waste of life that MUST change. It is just that, I cannot wrap my head around wanting to do anything needed to make money but something needs to happen quick. I do not want to wait until am desperate but I sort of am right now. My life process can be excruciating. I am aware that I have an intense passion to empower people, inspire, be an advocate for others but it comes out of anger not fun. I realize how significant the music is and how fulfilling the respect is, but again the fun is not there unless I in the work doing it. The inspiration to motivate myself which has been the only way I have been able to ever work, just isn't there these days. I know it is all about the need to work in a different way with more structure and conventional practices in life like going out to find money... again. I must say I had a fantastic ten year run using the equity I had built up in life to not have to worry about money. Then a single person stepped in. Now there are a few people contributing online but its under $200 a month total. Please create a subscription on the Contribute! link.

August 09, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

We went to the mission to create music for the dinner today as usual on Fridays. The heat may be getting to me, I hope that is what it is. I'm tired, lethargic, depressed a bit... need a change of scenery as I do not feel very inspired. The little room I have been living in may be getting to me. The apartment complex certainly is. The place is heading downhill (more so) fast. The internet is down and they do not care. Last week when it went down they did care. That was because it was the first of the month and many residents pay their rent online. So you can be sure they got it working real quick. Anyway, I'm working to go with the flow and to allow more non-internet activity into my life, which is a good thing. Part of me wants to put a fire under the ass of the management to become responsible but I'm not in the position to handle the fallout from doing that because the manager will just do something to try and make my life miserable for complaining. Two years ago I was still fighting the good fight, and winning when needed. I'm wondering if not doing or saying anything... has anything to do with my getting old or if I really am just taking advantage of the opportunity to practice going with the flow of life. Mo reminds me that the flow of life is worth it. He's my joy and I know I am his joy.

August 08, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

It is time for a trip to Mount Charleston as it has been a half year since we were last there. It is only an hour away but I need to stay aware of money with gas prices, etc... Mo and I headed to the Mission Center today. At night we took a walk and another homeless guy passed us, said Hi and also "Bless You" as he knew us from somewhere. Thats a far cry from some guy acting out on me at the Rescue Mission while I was creating music. He came up to me and started screaming, "Your a fucking faggot" while I calmly replied, "well yes I am." Lol, then he went away and came back at it again. I stopped playIng so everyone could hear and about ten homeless guys around me jerked up and yelled, "Yo John" they were all ready to have my back. SecurIty came and he started called them faggots so it wasn't personal. He was what they call eighty-sixed as in he cannot return for dinners any more. It happens. I am hoping it had nothing to do with Monday night at the field. Even though this was nothing I will ruminate on it for a few days to get it out of my system. I've got a real thick, paper thin skin that will be with me until I die. It is what it is.


August 07, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

It rained today. That is rare for this time of year. It also cooled the air down to a low of eighty nine for a short while and that felt almost cool compared to the constant over a hundred degrees for weeks now! I forced myself to go out for a little bit. I'm definitely emotionally stuck. As far as moving on I just can't decide what I want to do and it is a serious problem but I just don't care. I was in a mall and could feel people, strangers wanting to acknowledge me in positive ways. At a field where I took Mo for a short walk, a homeless guy came up to say hi. He knew us from a few years ago, had left the area and returned. There were many homeless people in the park and they were sending me good vibes. One guy came up to shake my hand. It was a little strange as he did not know me. The check out guy at the supermarket genuinely asked how I was doing, am I doing ok, is everything alright? The care was so strong I asked in return, why do I look like I'm havIng trouble? Lol, this has happened before in my life where out of no where people show me kindness and validation, like several in one day. I'm certainly not consciously creating it and in fact the experiences jolt me out a self-centeredness in my mind. I'm walking through the world ignoring the world when it happens.


August 06, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

Check this out! Joseph Carrabis a terrific author who I follow on Twitter created a Win-Win Give-A-Way for you to help support the Traveling Piano! Here is the link and the backstory: Win-Win Give-A-Way for Danny Kean ... I could write what happened here, but it is all there. When someone cares like this it really gets me going as in with a feeling of responsibility. It is like if they care about my work how can I not care... I owe it to them to care about myself? Whatever it takes. He first sent me a ten dollar contribution. That led to a ten dollar monthly subscription which led to his contribution idea to help me out. He created the webpage and put on it, word for word our email exchanges, ha... which felt just a little teeny weeny bit uncomfortable because they were personal but hey, this entire journey is about being personal!

August 05, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

The Traveling Piano shade umbrella broke. George, who works at Quality Auto around the corner from where I live fixed it in five minutes. I told him that very few people would have been able to to that. He said he knew. The guy really is amazing. He's the guy who fixed the trucks air conditioner that no one could fix for thirty years! And he does it as a friend. No money needed. At the field my friend Brian who cleans the streets while food and resources are given out... he came up and handed me twenty bucks. This has happened a few times over the years and is a very special feeling. Of course he knows I need it but it came through the feeling of his being a brother, a friend, something you just do because you can, know its needed and know it will be appreciated and its a good thing to do. Like someone just buying a gift for a friend because they know they will like it. Let me tell you, feelings of experiences like that in my life I can count on one hand. A guy who lives on the street came up to me and says... I've been watching you from a distance now for over a year and just want to tell you how much I appreciate you and what you do.



He said there have been several times where he was having the worst of days, the very bottom of the pit kind of day and will come into the Rescue Mission for dinner and I'll be playing that "Bugs Bunny" type of music (the Ragtime, Boogie Woogie or just my upbeat Improvising energy) and... it will just change his life in a second! He wanted to give me a hug and I was a little resistant because he was a little scuzzy but I did it and was so glad I did. His love came through strong! Then another guy came up and said how irritating my music is, the same old, same old every week. Lol... As I was about to leave an older guy and girl came up to say they were afraid a bunch of people were out to attack them and they used my friend Brian's phone to call the police. They asked me for a ride and there was no way, I would not even let them in the truck to wait, I would not have even let them use my phone but... I did wait with them until the police arrived... with my lead pipe next to me. There is a fine line when helping people. Boundaries and limits play out big as does trust and care concerning alienating people and keeping out of relationships they have with others.

August 04, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

My computer is acting up again. Every "i", "I" and "8" must be copied and pasted as I type. Is that insane or what, lol? I have an external keyboard but cannot use it while laying down or the computer is in my lap as I am used to. Lets see how long this will last. I've been staying up until six in the morning and sleeping until three in the afternoon. This schedule has been working because there is nothing to do with the sun out with it being a hundred ten degrees. The day was spent processing Traveling Piano pictures which I have been behind in doing. Dealing with the inevitable future concerning no money coming in and no backup supporting me... I just can't deal with it, yet. The future concerning the world's affairs... the only thing that seems to grab my interest is that of caring for people and calling out those who reject caring with warped minds or the objectification of humanity. If you don't care, I won't incite any interaction. But, if someone tries to give me their opinion and especially concerning the recent gun massacres and it does not fit mine... watch out because I hold nothing back! Get Rid of the Guns.

August 03, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

Tonight the Las Vegas Astronomical Society was having an annual community event at Red Rock Canyon in the dark. My friend Keith is the president of the club. I met him at this event last year so Mo and I went back to create music again under the stars with everyone. It was very dry and warm but still a lot of fun and I was reminded once again how I need to share the piano with other parts of Las Vegas community then just with the homeless. The night reminded me of the diversity of people who live here and the diversity of communities was a major factor in making Las Vegas my home. I swear there is a strange energy going on with me for the last two weeks. Sometimes my computer keyboard works and randomly it gives me problems. Other tmes it works like normal except for barley seeing through the worn out screen. The Traveling Piano keyboard was working tonight mostly, the volume control was working a little and that has been randomly on and off, my brain the same thing, Mo's behavior has been off... there is a fruit fly type nat just one, that follows me around my room.



If I'm laying in bed it is in my face, sitting in a chair same thing, in the bathroom, at the kitchen area sink... when I kill it another appears just one, its been going on for weeks and is driving me crazy. Back east there was a spider like this and it was a cyclical happening for years. I know when I write personal stuff in this blog it scares people away but lol, it is what it is. When I was younger and found unexpected personal Information on people's blogs it made me "very" uncomfortable. Ha, this blog has always been personal. So anyway, tonight I met a woman who for the last nine years has been fasting five days a week while eating only two. She does what is called the snake diet. Two Ukrainian women got onto the Traveling Pano and I loved that because my mother was Ukrainian. A brother and sister originally from Mexico created music together for the first time. Time was spent with two young musicians, one a senior in high school the other just graduated... a couple of people on dates... it was a very fulfilling night of friendship between strangers. More of this please? If only funding would come through.

August 02, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

We created music at the Rescue Mission today for about six hundred people, nothing new. I woke up at six in the morning! That is very new, eh? Spent two hours on the phone with social security getting no where, took a nap in the afternoon and then drove to the Rescue Mission. I wish every day could be like this. Waking up early feels more productive. At night we walked up the street to the First Friday Downtown event. While sitting at a friends food truck for about an hour, I tried to wrap my head around doing events like this as I did for twenty years prior to this journey. The journey began because I was so burnt out of doing events like this. I'm still burnt out but could do it if I was presented in a respectable way. That would take a lot of work. And, I don't want to make money unless it is a lot of money.



I like what I have been doing for the last twelve years... not making money. My friend revealed his politics and adoration of trump. Words cannot describe my adamant disappointment. Every time I discover a friend like this, it feels like another nail in the coffin for humanity. The reasons are different for different people and always come from a serious character flaws. Through the years it has been serious enough now for me to cut off relationships but a way must be found to coexist... until enough is enough. So I just state very strongly that I don't want to hear any of theIr shIt, none of it. He said he understands, it is like talking about religion. I said no, it is much worse as peoples lives are a stake and in immediate danger. Lets get back to the musical fun, friendship and respect.

August 01, 2019

Las Vegas, Nevada

Today was very strange. Physically and mentally I was totally out of it. The issue was not that I could not think but that I did not want to. I laid in bed sleeping until three thirty in the afternoon. Mo knew something was up. When I'm not feeling well he does something very amazing. In bed when am on my side he lays his head on my back as tender as can be to let me know he cares for a moment and then stretches his back longwise against mine to be as physically connected as possible and just stays there sleeping with me to comfort me. I know he's hungry, wants to get up, etc... on some level, but also know that giving me comfort is his priority. Finally, I got out of bed took a shower and went to play music for the rescue mission with about four hundred people as we have done every Thursday and Friday for a few years now. It felt all day like I was living in two dimensions of reality, very hard to explain. The money situation is overwhelming, not stressful because I think its past that level. Going into a hopeless mode seems to be the way but that is just not how I operate.



So, there is sort of nothing in my brain right now, it is in shut down mode. I was in my apartment complex pool two days ago thinking about how a mass shooting was due to happen and at that very moment a mass shooting happened in California. For those that know my journey, these unfortunate happenings have been a huge part of the Traveling Piano's journey. Emotionally, the sadness can shut me down if I do not stay aware of just how deep the sadness goes each time. There is without question a psychic connection with these events beyond my understanding. I do hope this blog takes a turn back into synchronistic and spontaneous, inspirational people interactions and travel fun. When I think about it, there have been many dark times through the years, I've just never focused on them in this blog. It is not dark by the way right now... it just might seem that way in my writing. I have always lived in the light as well as the dark at the same time. What comes out of me in any given moment... is what it is. When I am am in work mode always, it is light only. That s the job, the commitment, the professionalism, desire, the intent.